The Contrast

The Contrast
Lift Big, Sing Big, Look Great Doing It.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015


I've probably written on this very topic a dozen or so times in many different ways. However, it's a topic that doesn't grow old for me. Why? Because it's always highly relevant in everything I do. I'm constantly reminded about how much I allow criticism (constructive or not) to affect me.

In the past I've lost sleep over comments made about my performances. Many of them not given in spite, most of them being constructive. And why is that?

"I demand perfection."

The hard cold facts is that I won't be perfect for everything. In fact I'm not perfect for many things.

Somebody mentioned the phrase "it's all about context." Truth. The thing that bugs me is that I want to grab at every opportunity that swings by my window and hug that star as it launches me across the moon. But not every star is in reach, some stars won't hold my weight, maybe you're seeing the star and trying to catch onto his celestial tail and drag yourself onto its back. Timing is crucial.

Some things can't be had right now. Not this round. Not with this company. Doesn't mean it won't ever happen. It just isn't meant to be right now.

But that has never stopped me from investing as much as I possibly can into this moment. Blood, sweat and tears.

What comes with this kind of investment strategy is just like any other investment game. Big Wins and Big Losses.

If I half assed my preparation and didn't land a job I could very easily just say "Well, I didn't put much into it. No big deal. I'll get them next time." But when you start investing yourself into the music, language, and the story that these roles represent, spend as much of your free time researching the work, the performance history, and start making as many choices and invest your heart into a story - the sting hurts so bad. And frankly, the joy of the returns don't compare to the sting. Although the rewards of success are nice - they don't feel like a surprise, but rather earned.

But this too, is silly. Just as silly as perfection.

People have called me a perfectionist. But I feel the sting of criticism so much that the title perfectionist bugs me. That and I'm so critical of my work that the flaws pop out so glaringly that all I'm left to do is look at the product and yell "if I'm a perfectionist, why are there so many flaws in my work??"

Criticism is just another resource. Another tool in the box. It's like an involuntary survey - you've got to understand the information that you're receiving and the context it's given. And in the end, if you get butt hurt from receiving criticism, check your ego - search your heart - ask if you really want to do this professionally - and sack up. Criticism is part of the game, learn the rules and play your guts out.

Until Next Time,

Lift Big, Sing Big, and Look Great Doing It.

The Opera Bro

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